today i flew to the city where i grew up to spend some time with my dad who was diagnosed with terminal cancer, and given a survival time of 6 months. 1 year on he's still going. he's pretty unstoppable, and its hard to imagine him ever ultimately stopping. he is getting weaker now though, and with each month's visit comes nasty new surprises and more stressful goodbyes. even though my mum passed away from cancer 5 years ago i still don't have a grasp on how to handle it, so its a very draining time, but i'm grateful for the time we do get to spend together.
i'm reluctant to say this, but i've decided to take the rest of this week off from blogging. this blog is my happy place, and a distraction from harsh reality, but i need to keep some of my happy energy all for myself right now. i hope you can understand. regular programming will resume on monday.
thanks for reading, see you next week.